Looking back, I think that being a mom is what I have always aspired to be. I love doing many things. I love teaching and working in collaborative environments. I love being creative with everything from scrapbooking to sewing. I love to read, travel, take pictures, explore, dance, and have fun with friends. But, I can't say that anything is as fulfilling as being Noah's Mama. So having the opportunity to be home with him almost full time since his birth has been a true gift.
Since we are in the process of moving, it has been a little challenging at times to manage the workload of being a full time mommy and keeping the house presentable since it is on the market (send your prayers, please, as it is a sloooooooow market). For awhile, I got a little stressed about trying to 'do it all'. I would get frustrated with myself for not having done the laundry before Joel got home, or not having accomplished more tasks on the never ending to-do list that day. Joel is very supportive and reminds me that it can't all be done in one day, and that my job is to focus on Noah, not the dishes or the dog fur that needs to be vacuumed. So when I came across this poem, I decided to make it my new motto:
I hope my children will look back on today
And see a mother who had time to play.
There will be years for cleaning and cooking
But children grow up while we're not looking.
Dusting and scrubbing can wait 'till tomorrow
For babies grow fast we learn to our sorrow.
So quiet down cobwebs and dust go to sleep
I'm rocking my baby and babies don't keep.
I may not always have the tidiest home, but in the end, it doesn't matter. Try as I might, I can't keep him little forever. And although I may wish it at times, I can't wait to see the boy he will become and the man he will grow into. So for now, I'm happy to just focus on being "Mama", whether or not the laundry or dishes get done. I love you Noah!